AHH Samuel.

My head is spinning faster than I can think. Constantly my mind drifts to Sam. Mostly because of the boringness of my classes. But even so, I feel sick to my stomach. I hate the feeling of rejection. And at this point, that is certainly a possibility. I have put myself out there, awaiting anxiously now to hear what he has to say when we get a chance to get together outside school.
This is a confusing feeling. At some points, I have a longing to be right there by his side. Just have him there knowing that he's mine. But other times, I want to run away. Run far away from here and find one of those mushy sensitive but still manly boys (hah that's an ironic statement) that I had always seen myself going for. The kind of guy Tim was.
And that fact right there scares me greatly as well. Tim and Sam. Complete opposite people. Two totally different people in almost every way.
So the question is...
What kind of guy is for me?

Much love,
Jane Doe.