My speech to Sam.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I was a mess when we started talking.
I'm sorry I expected you to clean it up.
I'm sorry that I kept turning you down when I couldn't decide and still expected you not to leave.
I'm sorry that I kept coming back to you and screwing you over again and again.
I'm sorry that now we're talking again I blame you for us not working the first time.

With all that said, I do know that I'm not the only one at fault, even though I was probably more responsible, but it was still not only me.
As soon as you left you had another girl seemingly lined up.
When we we're still talking you were talking to other girls.
You know that is my worst fear. And you did it anyway. Even after you swore to me that you didn't have a 'Morgan'.
You told me multiple times you didnt know if you could stay with me because I wouldn't go all the way with you.

I'm making you sound worse than you are, I know. But I had to get it out.

So with all of that said, I'll say it again.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I was a mess when we started talking.
I'm sorry I expected you to clean it up.
I'm sorry that I kept turning you down when I couldn't decide and still expected you not to leave.
I'm sorry that I kept coming back to you and screwing you over again and again.
I'm sorry that now we're talking again I blame you for us not working the first time.
I regret it more than I could possible explain.

Please.

Don't leave.

Much love,
Jane Doe.