Sam issues. Much anticipated to hear about it, I'm sure, it's been so long since I mentioned them.

QUICK ANNOUNCEMENT BEFORE I BEGIN. 

Except for today, where I will catch you up on everything, I will now post weekly on Sundays! Plus maybe the occasional weekday post. 

THAT IS ALL.

Sam. 

One day I'm head over heels, the next I'm feeling trapped and claustrophobic. One day I think I want to try things with him, the next I think I want to stab myself so I don't have to deal with him anymore (not literally of course). But a recent realization came to mind recently; why am I so wishy-washy on deciding my feelings for someone when its not like he's proposing marriage? Its not permanent, so why when I get close to having a relationship with him, I suddenly have a feeling like I'm locked in a room with no way out. And I'm tired of it. It would be so easy to just through caution to the wind. Go for it. And just have fun while I'm still young. It is frustrating beyond belief. I am hopeful that soon I will be able to shed these bad habits quite soon and gain a summer boyfriend.

Much love, 

    Jane Doe.